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This is My Story: Love Set My Heart Free

by Laura 沖田 ., Vintage Photographer & Model from Brooklyn, United States

31 comments · 1 · January 23, 2014

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This is My Story: Love Set My Heart Free

Well, it all started out good. Originally from Colorado, I graduated a year early from high school with honors, placed in the top of all my sport competitions and modeled in New York City and Europe. Going into college, I planned to make the most of my life, have a career that would make a difference, and above all, like most young people, I planned to be happy.

I woke up one day, 26, unemployed and constantly heart broken. It was bad relationship choices that led to giving up on my dreams and settling for one assistant entry level job after the next. I wasn’t cut out for the terrified intern in the corner type of job, the easy target of every higher-up’s aggression, underpaid and overlooked. I could write a book on bad experiences in love, cheating, betrayal, lies and rejection. I had no family near, no friends of my own, and no passion left for anything. There I was, in New York City, afraid to move forward or make a commitment to a career, afraid to leave my current love situation and make changes. I was just frozen in life, with time ever inching forward.

One day, I freaked out. I needed to find myself before I would become sentenced to that life forever. I started learning Kendo (Japanese fencing). It was challenging and deep. You could put your whole heart and soul out in practice, no, you had to let your whole soul out. I felt drawn to it. I needed it, as if my life somehow depended on it.

I had been practicing for about a year when one day, in the middle of practice I looked over and saw this guy just standing there. He was so mysterious feeling. I saw he had an injury from a previous practice, a huge black and blue bruised elbow. I wondered where he came from, because I never saw him at practice before. He had just moved to New York from Japan for his work as a makeup artist, and was quite an impressive kendo player. I was actually scared of him, being so skilled and silent, but when we met outside the dojo, the tables were turned. I was the standoffish model. However, we had so much in common that despite our fears, the connection for us was instant.

After a lot of learning, misunderstandings, practice and patience, we finally developed our own way of communication and caring for each other. I am so much closer to him now because of it than I ever was in an American relationship. As to his influence on my work… I have had a basket full of odd jobs in several industries, but in the last two years, have had the courage to pursue my passion. I finally decided to listen to my heart and break away from the world of desks and answering telephones when I began dating my husband. Watching his brave journey to move to a foreign country and learn my culture inspired me to stop being afraid of what I want. I didn’t need to cross an ocean to find my dream, I only had to cross a desk. I would teach him English, and he would teach me to be free. Im not afraid to follow my dream to be a vintage designer, and Im not afraid that my life will be unpredictable. It is so much better than being stuck in my play it safe, heart break after heart break life that I had before.

Now we often work together and inspire each other on almost every project. I say that we are two peas in a pod,… or two edamame in a shell.

I hope that I can encourage others to follow their dreams, appreciate their loved ones and break free from things holding them back.

(The picture was taken in Japan by my now husband. We were at the Jinja where we will be having our traditional Shinto Japanese wedding this year, making plans for the ceremony) <3

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Stephanie Marinello
Congrats!! love what you wrote, is it all true? hyped!
Laura 沖田   Okita
Yes its true, thank you! :)
Teresa Leite
Breathtaking picture and also love what you wrote... It touched me deep. Hope you win the contest, I really do.
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Laura 沖田   Okita
Thank you <3
Teresa Leite
I thank you! I was also a victim of a bad relationship, I had all my life turned inside out when I was 18... I survived and I grew stronger, but loving again was not easy for me. Our past is part of who we are today, it's our story :). I'm glad that you found love along the way, it's a true blessing <3
Laura 沖田   Okita
Thank you! It so hard to see things clearly when we are young and in love. Im glad to hear you had the courage to leave a bad relationship. It can be very difficult. It took me a long time to trust again. I feel that it made me able to appreciate supportive true love so much more. Knowing a bad relationship makes a good one so much sweeter. I was so happy when he asked me to get married, I threw up haha.
Teresa Leite
I can relate :). It took some time but I was able to love again. Recently I knew another type of deep love, my dearest baby son (he's 18 months old). It's the most overwhelming love experience that I've lived so far... I would have never thought that I could love like this :). I wish you and your dear husband all the best, from the heart!
Laura 沖田   Okita
Congratulations!! thank you, and to you as well! xo
Dora D.
Always loveeee !!!!!
Wonderful !!!!
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Zhanna E
Hi, Laura, first I would like to say that you look absolutely stunning, and the outfit you are wearing is so bright, captivating and energizing! I read your story, you did have a lot in your plate at such a young age, and your story is another proof of what F.Nietzsche once said: That which does not kill us makes us stronger. I wish you and your husband all the best in your future life! Zhanna
Laura 沖田   Okita
Thank you! I have come to appreciate my experiences for making me treasure the little things I may have otherwise taken for granted. Every night when my husband comes home, that is enough to make me happy. It doesnt always feel like it in the beginning, but its true that with time, we will be stronger. I wish you all the best as well!
Aria J Blessing
Wow Laura i nerver imagine that you'll have such a hard history... You're so strong!! And congrats for getting married!!!! I hope you'll be full of happines <3
Philip Mak
OMG you are sooooooo beautiful!!
Philip Mak
Beautiful from outside to inside ;)
Laura 沖田   Okita
Thank you <3
Tram Anh
such a beautiful story <3 very touching
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Amina Allam
Just read your beautiful story - very touching indeed. Congratulations and be happy <3
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