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This is my story
According to Buddha ...You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve love and affection.
This is my story and my journey back to loving myself again.
I, now in retrospection try to pinpoint how my weight gain began. Was it because I had a job that I did not like or was it because a great majority of my friends moved out of state? Or was it because of a great emotional upheaval because I lost someone who was near and dear to me? I just found myself retreating from my social world and before I knew it my weight ballooned to 200 pounds! The weight just crept up on me in a period of 5 to 6 years. Was I in a state of denial? How did I allow this to happen? How does one respond to snide remarks and jokes about your weight?
Deaf ears and retreat to the safe cocoon of food and more food. Relatives felt that fat shaming jokes was the way to make me lose weight. But it was not. What happened to sitting me down to an honest conversation about weight loss?
Exist or live? I just existed then. I did everything from rote. My life was one of monotonous existence. Like an automaton I did not know how to get out of the rut I was in nor could I perceive of a different kind of existence. I did not know how to turn my life around. I just accepted everything as status quo!
My epiphany happened at a happy family gathering. A wedding overseas. I traveled a long way to get more fat jokes and snide remarks from close friends and family again! It kind of put a damper on my almost non-existent self-confidence but at the same time I got defiant. I can do this! I can lose this weight. I am so tired of all the jokes. And on the plane back home when the flight attendant asked me if I wanted something to drink. I asked for water. I was going to give up my soda guzzling days... I defiantly announced on Facebook I was joining Weight Watchers. There were naysayers. A lot of them! Even my relatives. But I persevered! I influenced others who needed to lose weight to join my journey. Some fell off along the way but I have encouraged others to follow suit because they know it works. I am proof positive of that. They have seen the results. 200 pounds down to 150...I am loving the new me and I love it even more because I was a catalyst in my co workers determination to lose weight too.