They told me to change ...and probably that would had made the bullying from my classmates stop, but that would meant for me to stop being myself.
The constant bullying and being called names like: Fat, ugly,weirdo, just to mention some, were slowly destroying me on the inside. I had no friends at school, no one wanted to sit down and talk to the edgy looking girl who would often be found with her face burried on a book or writting poetry. The entire class would often laugh at me for looking like what they used to call "different". I ignored them, what else could I do when it was just me against them? And eventhough on the outside I seemed strong and like I didn't care a bit, on the inside I was breaking down.
But still, I kept true to myself. I was not gonna change who I am just to get people (who were not worth it) to like me.I knew the bullying would continue, but atleast I would still have myself. I was not gonna let me become just another sheep in the barn. No, I stayed true to who I am, and that's where I learned to really love and accept myself. I became more involved with feelings,instead of just ignoring them the way I did so many years before,,and if there was no one who could listen to me,I knew I would be there to listen to myself...my inner self. I left all those insults and names behind and became friends with me,Elsa Lucia.
As days went by,the bullying slowly stopped because people really noticed that their words could no longer hurt someone who, after all, did believe in herself and was willing to go through everything only to be herself and nothing else.
I don't blame this people for acting mean, we are all human, and we all make mistakes, and their mistakes led me to where I am now. Thanks to this experience I learned not to judge a book by its cover,to be strong, and to have tolerance.We are all different, yet we are all the same.
My advice is to let yourself fall into the infinity of your mind. Get to know yourself, always stay true to who you are, don't let anyone tell you who you are supposed to be, because if you do, you'll be losing your true self, only to become something like a souless body. Always stand up for what you believe in, even if it means having to stand alone in the world.
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