"Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them." - Andy Rooney.
I grew up independently, since my father and mother broke up. I have two brothers and we are like living in our own because my mom should strive hard to feed us.
In my young age, I experienced being bullied. I was called, "dwarf", "loner", "ugly", "not worthy to be with", "trash", and many more words that is like reminding me that I should not be here on earth. I cannot tell anyone. I don't know where my father was. My mother is busy at work. My brothers are also busy with their own lives.
There was this time I wanted to die. I feel worthless. I feel empty. I don't have 'true' friends during that time. They didn't know that whenever they say I am ugly, I can't buy new uniform because my mom is busy. I can't brush my hair because I have things to do at home and I need to study hard, so I'll be worthy of any cent that my mom is giving me. I can't sleep enough because I need to wait for my family till the middle of the night at home, just to be sure that they are safe. I keep on telling my self, "they just didn't know what I am going through."
In my young age, I keep on searching of what is the true meaning of life, until I read this book entitled 'Pocketful of Pearls' by Shelley Bates.
I realized that even the world is cruel, we need to think positive... that there is more in life.
Thoughts came into my mind that I should learn to love my self. I read books and watch television on how to style and improve. I started brushing my hair and put clothes that can give me confidence. Time passed by, I have accepted that whatever happens, there are always people who will judged you whatever you are doing, so keep going on. I gain friends and started to achieve things not to please everybody, but to inspire people.
It is true that when you know how painful to go through this situation, you might be bitter and just be stagnant. But, I keep on mind that no matter what happen, I should prove that I am worthy to live because we are all the same. We are humans.
Let us be sensitive about the people around us. Be quick to listen, but be slow to judge because you might not know what they are going through already.
I am still thankful that I will not be who I am today without these things.
Thank you so much for reading the glimpse of my life. Hope you learned something.
I am not after winning at all, I just wanted to share and inspire you guys. :)
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