Do you ever think about what goes through the minds of people who take their own lives? It's definitely a sensitive subject, not to be encouraged, romanticized or taken lightly. This is merely a point for consideration. Do you think before they decide to take the plunge they plan out what they're going to wear? Do they think about what album will be left on the record player? Do they toss out the dirty mags? Flush the secret stash? Purge the diaries? Do they do it in a way to make the least amount of fuss for whomever finds them? The truth is, most suicides are found to be planned out. Scenes are set. Moods are made. If you've seen Wristcutters: A Love Story, the opening scene is a statistically accurate re-enactment of most in-home suicides. The whole notion of such pre-meditation is at once sickening and disheartening as it is intriguing.
If I was gonna go, I'd wanna go wearing some of the things I know well. My favorite jeans that fit just right, my Grandfather's cardigan that's shrunk in size and garnered many comforting rips and tears, the plaid shirt that offers up just the right level of my masculinity, the non-prescription glasses I wear just because I can â€“Â these are the things that feel like "me". These are the things that feel like who I really am, not the person I project or want to be someday. It's not done-up to impress, or played-down to appear misunderstood â€“ it's just me, here and now.